I really wish I have the strength to just let go. But it’s harder than I thought. He’ll make you believe that it’s okay, that he’ll wait for you, that he’ll support you no matter what. But those promises are empty, when you’re not there anymore.
I wish you can just stop loving someone, so that you won’t be vulnerable to him all the time, so that you won’t have to stop pretending that you don’t miss him, or wait for him to talk to you. Sometimes, I wish he’ll just find somebody else, so that it would be easier in the long run, though the thought just kills you.
Sometimes, I wish people around me weren’t right, but I know they are. Deep in my heart, I know they are. Everything he does, it’s just to spite you, or to retaliate, because he thinks your actions are intentionally hurting him. You’re hanging on by a thread, but he just makes you choose, all the time. He doesn’t know how hard it is to be away, while he’s having a vacation without you. :) Now he says he, too, has to go away. Worse, he’s taking all your memories together with him. Everything. He’s taking it back. Like you never deserved any of them in the first place. And you have no choice, no matter how hard you tried to cherish them, you have to give them all back eventually.
Makes you wonder, did he ever really love you?
Think twice, before falling again…
